Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Alleluia!


Easter has always been one of my favorite times of the year. I love that the weather turns warmer, the snow begins to melt, the first robins are seen, and we finally hit the home stretch of the school year! It’s also undeniable that Holy Week is the pinnacle of the church year, and I never realized how much it means to me to celebrate with a community of believers, until I no longer have the same opportunity. I simply love Holy Thursday when we are reminded to follow Jesus’s example and wash the feet of our brothers and sisters. Then, we commemorate Good Friday services and reflect on the Passion of Christ. He laid down his life for the least of us, and there is no greater love than this. The Easter Vigil on Saturday evening is one of the most beautiful, meaningful opportunities to reflect on the mystery of Christ’s Resurrection, and Sunday morning Easter services are the most joyful displays of worshipping the risen Lord!
While I didn’t have the chance to attend any of the other services this year, I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to worship Sunday morning at the Catholic Church in Ngara. To be honest, the prospect of going to church on my own is daunting anywhere, but much more so for me in a foreign community. But sometimes you just need to take the first step and then the rest will fall into place. I was told that mass was at 9am, so I arrived there a few minutes early, only to find out that the first service wasn’t finished yet. Not a big deal, I figured since it was Easter they were running a little longer than normal. There were two other young women sitting outside the entrance to the church grounds, so I waited across from them, until after a while one of them left and the other invited me inside to sit closer to the door. We shared a friendly conversation (all in Swahili I am proud to say!) and I found out the next service was actually at 10am, go figure. So we waited together, and when everyone came pouring out of the church from the first service, she introduced me to another young woman who would take me inside and then said goodbye. All this time I thought she was waiting for the next service as well, when come to find out she was simply waiting with me so I wouldn’t have to be alone! What a kind act for a complete stranger!
I was very grateful to have someone who grabbed my hand at this point to lead me  through the sea of people and inside the church. It’s comforting to sit next to someone at mass! The church was simple, but bright and beautiful on the inside. The church in Muyenzi reflects all of the buildings in the community, dark on the inside, dirt floors, mud walls, wooden rafters with bats perching above your head. There’s absolutely nothing wrong it, it just is what it is, and we can sing praises to our God regardless of the building. But this church in Ngara had bright white walls, colorful fabric draped along the back wall surrounding the Crucifix, microphones and a sound system, a full choir, and six sections of wooden pews that you would find in any American church. It was lovely! While I couldn’t understand most things that were being said, the thing I love about Catholic mass is that it follows the same outline no matter where you are in the world. I knew exactly when to sit, stand or kneel. I knew when we were hearing the Gospel, consecrating the bread and wine, or shaking hands for the sign of peace. And when the choir broke out in the most wonderful rendition of the Alleluia chorus from Handel’s Messiah that I’ve ever heard, I was overjoyed! Of course they sang it in Swahili, but it was beautiful and I simply loved that I had the opportunity to spend my Easter morning with such a welcoming, joyful, and peaceful community of believers. 
I’ve learned the importance of taking the first frightening step, embracing every opportunity, and pouring your heart out to God. Whether sitting in a comfortable community with friends and family or in a new place surrounded by new faces speaking a new language, the ultimate celebration is Alleluia, Christ is Risen!

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Blessed


"Because you have seen me, you have believed;                                                                               blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed"                                                               John 20:29
While yesterday I was reminiscing over everything I won’t miss about life here and all the things I can’t wait for in the western world, today’s blog is going to take a different approach. We were invited to dinner last night at the District Education Officer’s home, and his wife prepared a lovely meal for Sue, her sister and myself. We had the traditional bananas and beans, rice with vegetables in peanut sauce, avocado, chapatti, tomato salad, and fresh hot milk tea (my personal favorite!). After the delicious meal, we had a wonderful conversation about education, the schools here, Lyn’s work with leprosy and AIDS in Malawi and so on.
At one point, Mr. Nestory asked Sue and I if we could extend as volunteers here. This is a question I’ve been asked quite often recently from various people, and one that I always have to answer with a heavy heart. I say that I must return home to see my family, to begin the school year as a teacher in America, and to earn money since I’m only a volunteer here. All true things, but it doesn’t change the fact that when I leave my students wont have a math teacher. I can’t help but notice that teachers come in and out of their lives so frequently. Of the five government teachers that were assigned to our school, four reported, one left within the first weekend, and another has been gone for the past two weeks. That leaves two…not a very good average. And while most of the teacher’s at my school do go to their classes, it’s not uncommon for teachers to miss several periods a week, simply because they don’t feel like teaching. Yes, it’s a remote placement and the living situation is very difficult, but what message is being sent to the students? If the teacher’s don’t seem to care, then why should we? And now, here I am, another teacher come and gone….
At the same time, I’m reminded of the impression I’ve made while being here. I love my students to pieces, every last one of them. And I’ve poured my heart into trying to teach them mathematics. And when that doesn’t seem to work out, well then, at least I can brighten their day with another crazy story from life in Muyenzi! I wish I could stay. I wish I didn’t have to leave. I wish it didn't feel like I am abandoning their mathematics education. But realistically, this is another chapter that will end and we’ll begin anew in August. And that’s ok.
After explaining to Mr. Nestory why I can’t stay any longer as much as I would like to, he simply looked at me and said,
“God will repay you, somehow, somewhere, for the work you have done here.”
I am humbled by his faith, his passion for education and his dedication for improving the quality of life in Tanzania. His recognition for our work here as teachers is inspiring, and I pray that this is only the beginning of the work that will be done for the students of Ngara district.
On this blessed Easter morning, I am reminded that God has no need to repay me for what I have done here, because the truth is that He already has…in sending His only Son to save us. Rather, I am the one who is repaying my debt to Him, right here, right now, and in every moment of every day, for the death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ. He is indeed our Lord and Savior!

Saturday, March 30, 2013

To Miss or Not To MIss


Reflecting on my time here, it seems that with more and more frequency lately I find myself beginning a thought with “I certainly won’t miss [insert random something]” which is usually closely followed by “Oh my goodness I can’t wait for [insert another random something]!!!!” 

So considering my organized math brain is in full force here, I’ve made a table for you. Here you have it, the things I will NOT miss, what I seriously cannot wait for…and to shed a little positive light on the situation, I suppose there are aspects of most situations that I might actually miss. If you can't tell, i've been compiling this list for quite some time now...


I will NOT miss…
I can’t wait for…
I guess I might miss…
Washing my hair in a bucket with only 6 cups of water (once a week I should add)
Regular access to a private, clean, hot shower!
The warm afternoons when I can bathe outside, or those fun times when I’ve showered in the rain
Spending hours laboring over stubborn charcoal to cook dinner every day
An oven! Perhaps a microwave too. Maybe a blender? but let’s not get too crazy here
Our jiko. But only maybe.
Scrubbing my clothes clean by hand or carrying them to be washed by a local woman
A washing machine
…nothing about this…do you want to scrub the dirt out of your socks??
Steri-penned water
A faucet
Our beautiful makeshift bucket with a tap
Our lack of a plug to charge anything
A reliable plug that’s nearby (anywhere closer than 50km will do)
The joy of checking email and fb once a week, it’s so much more exciting!
Eating in the dark
A light bulb
A reason to have nightly candlelight dinners
Being dependent on others to travel anywhere
A car
My personal piki driver, Furaha!
The constant language barrier
Normal communication with people
The beauty of the Swahili language
Only having access to food one time per week
A grocery store
Our walk to the market through the mountains
Skirts to my ankle
JEANS!
…nothing about my wardrobe
Having to wrap myself in fabric every time I answer the door
Wearing shorts outside!
…again, nothing about this
The daily workout of squatting to wash dishes or cook dinner
An actual workout…zumba, a run (wearing shorts), or going to the gym
Afternoon nap time
Literally no sanitation of anything
Standard household cleaners and normal soap
My apparently strong immune system
The very unreliable mail system here
A post office
The simple joy of finally receiving a package 2 months after it was sent
Living creatures everywhere, many of which are potentially quite dangerous
Not having bats in my ceiling or being bit by unknown bugs in my bed every night
The thrill of passing within 2 feet of giant cattle with huge horns on my way to school
Having to search our house, climb the mountain, or stick my head out the window to get cell phone service
THROWING MY PHONE OUT THE WINDOW! Or maybe just actual honest-to-goodness cell phone reception
The *beep* that accompanies the “message sending failed” that I receive multiple times a day…or not!
Internet connections that take over 20 minutes to load one page
A reliable WI-FI connection
My Vodacom dongle. We’ve shared some quality time together

Friday, March 29, 2013

Trust


First, I would just like to say pole sana for falling behind on posts recently. Life has here has been going well I must say, but after 7 or 8 months, things just begin to feel normal and not nearly as exciting to write about anymore. Not only that, but my precious computer battery and the time I have online are both quite limited. While before I could make blogging a priority, the shift has officially been made to job applications for next year. Updating my resume, writing cover letters, filling out applications, compiling references, and so on all take time. And a lot of time when you can only charge your computer once a week and it takes at least five minutes to load any website page.
That being said, pray for this job search. While I am certain that math teachers are in demand, it’s difficult when you submit a cover letter and then have to include the *minor* detail of current residence: Middle of Nowhere, Tanzania.
Now let’s see, what’s the news of life in Muyenzi? Well, it’s Easter break next week, so we closed the school yesterday and will open again on April 8. While I was initially hoping that I could visit some other volunteers in the southern part of the country, plans fell through when we actually had classes all week instead of a sports tournament with two other schools, and then my 3 day journey wouldn’t get me there in time to see them. So instead, I’ll be hanging out in Ngara for a few days, hopefully find a church for Easter Sunday, and then head to Kigali next week to switch things up a bit. I have a “to-do” list that’s way too long currently, so I plan on using as much electricity and Internet as humanly possible in the next week…and hopefully I’ll actually be able to get something done! No worries, catching up on blog posts and stories from the past few weeks is certainly on my list! So stayed tuned!
In other news, my flight home has officially been booked! While my Internet is actually not strong enough to open my itinerary currently, I can tell you that I will be departing May 22 and arriving in the US on May 23! While I am certain the transition will be difficult (for instance, you’ll all expect me to shower more than once a week, and personally that just sounds like a lot of effort…) I think I’m ready to begin the next chapter of my life, wherever that may be, doing whatever it is that I’ll be doing….
And with that, I will leave you with this: One of my goals for this year abroad is to read the Old Testament from start to finish. Currently I am reading Proverbs, and last night before falling asleep I came to one of my favorite passages:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)